so i cant remember what new year resolution i made last year. but i do know that my 2011 was basically just me settling down in society. the typical let's get a job, earn money, save up, get married, have children, and die. i didnt do everything on the list but i was getting there.
and i know that's not me. that's not how i want my life to be.
the whole freaking 2011 was me building that life. sure, i got money from that and i got the experience of what it will be like if i did settle.
no.
my 2012 resolution is now to screw that shit. i need more meaning in my life. i want to travel more. i want to meet more people. i don't want to stay in singapore i dont want to be friends with singaporeans only. i want to travel and experience different cultures. i want to move away. i need to get out. i want things to be awesome. i want to trip. i want to go for trips. i can't settle here.
i meet people who are earning $15 a month and volunteering for shelters and they're much happier than me who's earning much more than that and living in this materialistic capitalist society. this is just not me. i was so unhappy.
2012 is going to be different. i will stay here. i will continue doing this damn job. i will save. i will research, i will learn. i swear. if i believe it hard enough it will happen.